Alone

Bismilahhirrahmannirrahim,
6.50 ptg, usai makan malam.

Sunyi rasa hati dalam keriuhan ramai
Aku mencari wajah wajah yang aku kenali buat melepas lelah yang dirasai
Tapi kosong, tiada siapa lagi yang aku boleh percaya
Tiada siapa lagi yang aku selesa dengannya

Hati rasa sunyi
Akal kata benci "aku tak suka keseorangan begini!"
Tapi ilahi sedang rangka sesuatu yang aku tidak pasti
Aku dibiar sendiri mengira detik detik yang berlalu pergi

Aku tak pasti jika ini satu hukuman atas khilafku
Atau satu ujian buat persediaan hari hariku
Atau boleh jadi juga percaturan yang maha esa
Yang mahu  bergantungnya aku hanya pada dia

Aku rasa kosong, aku rasa seorang diri
Acap kali juga rasa diri ini dibenci
Entah atas sebab apa aku tidak tahu
Atau cuma aku yang membina tembok dikelilingku?

Sudah banyak aku lalui tahun kebelakangan ini
Sudah banyak keji maki yang aku dengari
Sudah banyak hasad dengki aku lalui
Kini aku lelah dan penat menyendiri

Ya Allah hadirkan seorang teman buat penyeri hari
Ya Allah hadirkan seorang teman buat penyejuk hati
Ya Allah hadirkan seorang teman yg akan bersamaku sampai mati.

Tentang dia

Untuk dia,
yang setiap memori tersimpan rapi
yang setiap gerak geri aku ingati
yang aku simpan rapi dalam kalbu
biar lidah meronta ingin beritahu
beritahu pada dunia
betapa istimewanya kamu
sekurang-kurangnya buat aku

Untuk dia,
yang aku hanya mampu tersenyum
acap puji dan puja singgah di telinga
kerna aku cukup tahu
yang kamu lebih dari itu

Untuk dia,
yang kini hanya aku mampu tatap
lewat sebuah skrin kaku
mulut membisu, pandang tak endah
tetapi ekor mataku tidak dapat menipu

Untuk dia,
yang kini jauh
kadang teringat, kadang rindu
rindu pada sebuah memori indah
kita dahulu

12:59 pagi, 9 Julai 2014

My angels, my beautiful angels.

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim,

Dear my two angels, the one that I know will read this post soon, I never dedicate any post to you but here it is. I achingly missing both of you.

I have thing to confess, I could never handle separation in a good way. I only know one way and that way ain't pretty. I did cried a lot recently, I could never imagine living without one of my angels. I think I already grown attached to both of you and the thought that Ross will leave us two here stab my heat painstakingly. I know you will leave us here for a good reason and I am so proud of your choice. A proud friend I am, my dear Rossie Ross will further her study in finance :) I lost my word in my tears.

Nadiah, I know you are in such a trouble time now I wish I could hug you and tell you everything gonna be okay. Nadiah, my strong-willed woman, I pray the best for you. Its the little hardship that comes before ease. Everything will be good after this right :)

Do you two remember how the first time we bonded? Ah, silly me, we always talked about it. Now, I'm grateful and I'm glad Nadiah did call me to sit with both of you during our trip to Bukit Tinggi for our induction camp. I'm glad both of you want me in your circle, I'm glad both of you accept me the way I am. It is the blessed that Allah grant me, to have both of you in my live. I just know both of you for a year but it feels like forever. You two are part of me, an important chapter of my live.

Ross, the loyal one, I will miss you so badly.
Nadiah, the strong-will, thank you for so many things.

Syiera,
your overly-attached angel.

xoxo

Explanation

The more I think of it, the more I feel it burdening every nerves, shooting my heart

Well, I think I deserve an explanation

Right up to my face, not through the phone, just as you did

I dont know why, it is almost a year, but I'm living in denial ever since

Yes, I think I deserve a well respected good explanation from your mouth

The truth, no concealment
If there is a chance you reading this

Bear in mind, you owe me an awful lot of explanation

Oh well, yes my Facebook status share is meant for you.

SPM Result

Tomorrow, SPM result for batch 2013 will come out and my sister is one of the candidates. She start worrying like weeks ago about her SPM result but deep in my heart I believe she will get straight A's. Nothing surprising to me, her brain is her gems. Thus when she channeling her worries to me that she might let down our parents is she do not get straight A's, I gave her some advice that I wish I could tell myself 4 year ago, that your parents will still love you no matter what you get, no matter how much A's you get.


Yes, 4 years ago, I do make my parents sad, I break their hearts, not because I did not get straight A's as being expected from me, but because I am too consumed with my 'heart-wrenching' moment and I push everybody else out from my bubble. Yes, even my parents. I weep and weep over my damn SPM results, I keep dreaming about that B for chemistry that I get, I ran away from home, I ran away from my parents. I feel useless as I think I let them down after all the love they shower me. That is how shallow am I last 4 years, if i could travel back to that time, I will tell all this to the green me back then. Because of that B, I lost myself, how stupid I am.

SPM results is nothing, again it is nothing. You want to be a doctor but your result is not good enough, bring your ass to private uni, work hard, apply for PTPTN, first class then you can turn it into scholarship. Nothing is impossible, SPM results is maybe just a ticket. If you work hard enough, you might still get scholarship during your studies in university. Maybe for few semesters you have to pay for yourself, but after that if your result is good, there are tons of scholarship waiting.

Now, I am in my final semester of my third year, going to final year in few weeks time, taking accounting, having fun while studying, with programs, clubs, societies etc Believe me, no one ever ask me what did I get for my SPM, no one. So worry not dear sisters and brothers, just keep calm, whatever comes tomorrow, embrace it, and believe Allah has plan it for you well enough as He is the best planner ;)

Dream Job (now no longer)

People always asked me at campus, "do you really want to practice after you graduate?" and my answer is always "No, not sure, see how first". And come to the day i have my internship, next time people ask me, I will definitely say NO. A big NO, a scary hell big NO.

Its funny when I used to think that I want this professional degree, to practice as an auditor and become a partner. Then, today, on my 3rd day of internship I started asking myself is this what I really want to do. Is this what I want to spend my life with? Is this what I gonna look forward every time I wake up in the morning? Miserable me, yes I am now. I just realised this thing is never meant for me. Call me early judger, I don't care. I just feel it doesn't suit me in any way possible.

I better off become a newscaster or whatnot and married a Sultan (ok, its a joke)

Till then, lets see if I survive another 6 months as an auditor.

Gadis-Gadis Emas 5

I dreamt of all of you last night. In a beautiful dream where we celebrate our birthday, together. Such a perfect celebration with smile and laughter echoing all around. I dont know what thats mean, but I think in the deepest pit of my heart, I do miss my housemates. All of you.

Here, in this long abandoned blog, I want to apologize for all of my mistakes that I did for all the years we live together. I also want you all to know that, I forgave all of you, every single one of you. Our action may speak differently, but truly in my heart, I let go. Because there are so much things to smile for when I look back, all those frown and sadness, I let it go. Thanks for all those wonderful years together.

Syiera Rosli

Hati

Berkali-kali diingatkan hati, jangan jatuh sesuka hati, jangan jatuh jika disana terlampau mustahil untuk digapai. Nama pun hati, hati tiada akal untuk mewaraskan bila mana ia memutuskan untuk jatuh kepada yang disana. Minda masih waras, ia tak mahu beri separuh hati sesuka hati. Tapi hati, dia berani. Kini hati sudah terasa pedih, yang disana rupa-rupanya hatinya sudah jatuh kepada yang lain. Tidak apa, sampai disini. Selamat tinggal. Selamat tinggal. Hati kini tahu, ia perlu berhenti. Kisahnya dengan rama-rama dulu sudah cukup buat dia sedari, cinta bukan lagi miliknya buat masa ini....

Tired.

Well, penat dengan manusia gila kuasa

Perasan sempurna

Resolutions!

Nahhh, i feel too cheesy when writing about resolution, its like 'who cares?'

But I just have to jot it down somewhere, so I choose my long abandon blog
Okay back to the topic, I gonna start running tomorrow (syiera? running? where is the gajah in you? haha)
Yes I have to. Not because of I want that dream body (okay, I still want it) but I fall sick for the whole three weeks just because I am stressed out, juggling between studies and SRC work. I have to get fit as today the whole day I suffer from painful headache and runny nose.

I have to. I have to.
Wish me luck. XOXO

ayat-ayat cinta

Buka tafseer,

Baca.

Tertikam hati,

Terkelu lidah sebentar

Tenung depan

Allah bercakap dengan kau, Syiera. Allah tengah ingatkan.

Tutup tafseer

Nangis

Allah! ayat-ayatMu, buat aku tertampar

Dalam sakit itu, aku rindu.

Longing.

I know my heart long for something

I have tried a few things, 

I ran away,

I took my time alone,

I gave my heart to something else

Yet it did not work

I know i'm missing something

In the most deepest place in my soul

I'm aching for it

Today, I know what I miss the most

Today, I know what I long the most
I miss the warmth of Allah's love
Ya Allah, bring me back, bring me back on the track

-Syiera Rosli-

Monday, 16/12/2013

7.50 am

Future housewife, future mommy

First I have to clarify that this post is not about me being a future housewife or future mommy in any time soon. It just something that cross my mind while I'm folding clothes just now (you know for the preparation of being good housewife someday, lol!)

Yeah something cross my mind while I am folding the clothes while listening to my playlist at the highest volume possible. As so-called generation Y, after baby boomer generation, we literally cannot be separated from music, gadgets and so much more entertainment-induced stuffs. Taking me myself as an example, while doing any chores, first thing first is I plug in my earphone, search for playlist and the song come out blasting to my ears, there, I am ready to do anything even to bungee jump. I wonder if one day, when this so-called generation Y are to be parents, are we still listening to the highest volume on our I-pod while breast-feeding our child (sorry for the example though) or while we are assisting our children in doing their homework. How we gonna hear what our children have to tell us when all we do is listen to the music?

It is not only about the music and whatnot, it is more than that. The music, gadgets is not wrong at all, me myself a gadget-dependent, literally from the moment I wake up until I sleep. One day, I was cooking with my mum and i was Instagramming whatever we cooked that day, my mum, on the high pitch, said "kau ni dah kenapa amek-amek gambar ni!?" ("why are you taking those picture!?") and she shooed me away from kitchen to put down my phone somewhere else. And at that moment I was thinking it is not wrong because almost everybody at my circle of age doing the same thing. Aha!, i forgot about the generation gap. You know, something that we do not see as it is wrong, its look so wrong from our parents and our grandparents perspective. I wonder if in 5 to 10 years ahead, when all of us become mommies, do we still taking so much time at kitchen, not to cook the meal, but to Instagram each and every steps of us cooking. Maybe a meal that supposed to take only 30 minutes becomes 1 and the half hours just because we are so busy taking pictures? (I could not imagine my Instagram timeline at that moment)

What i am writing today is not to be taken literally as in we should not listen to music and we should not Instagram our picture anymore. Me myself would back off but here i would like to address something much more important, where we see ourselves as social enough, equipped with latest technology and seem like we have all the knowledge that we need. In fact, try to look at a group of youngsters eating at mamak stall, do they talk to each other or they just stare down at their phone like nobody business? It is sickening. So much self-centered. I wonder how this self-centered generation (MY generation to emphasis) is going to be a good parents, to care for other person, our own children while now what we are doing is like "I dont care for others as long as I have a good Wi-Fi connection" 

I have to admit this generation will be something different than our parents. Different perspective of looking at life, different ways of handling things, so much different in so many aspects. As some of us embracing this on the bright side such as becoming more vocal, more open-minded and more globally-centered, most of us just becoming more and more self-centered, passive and do not want to mingle around.

I am looking forward to see the future housewife, future mommy, future parents from generation Y. It is same as I imagine - A housewife cooking while instagramming and a dad teaching his firstborn to walk while listening to the highest volume on I-pod or a mommy cleaning up the house using water hose and spray everything because at that moment everything is waterproof.

Throwback: Lhoksuemawe, Aceh, Indonesia

One of my friend during secondary school went to Lhoksuemawe last week
She posted a few pictures and all i can say is Allahu rabbi, rindu! 

I really hope they do well in their hafadzan, and they do well in their studies

By the way, PA5-ian, katanya nama kita disebut-sebut, mereka tanya kpd delegasi yang pergi tu kenal tak sama kakak-kakak MMU yang pernah dtg ke sana 2 tahun lepas

Semoga nama kita tak pernah luput dari doa mereka :')

jzkk

Misunderstood.

She is the girl who always misunderstood and misstated by people.

She is the girl when she speaks, people thought she wanted people to follow her order.
Truth is she is very open for negotiation, and she also knows she not always right.

She is the girl when she remain silents, people assumed she is angry.
Truth is she try to listen and thinking how to say a beautiful words even she object.

She is the girl when she is willing to give everything, people are afraid to ask for anything.
Because people scared she will scold them

She is the girl when she pick up the phone toneless, people ask "are you ok?"
Truth is she just don't have the skills to talk over phone, she prefers face to face

She is the girl when she walk down the hallway expressionless
People judge her as arrogant, just because her lips curled downwards
what people want her to do? some facial surgery?

She is the girl, who don't know how to deliver a lovey dovey words to anyone
Just because she's being raised by a very strict mother, who she knows love her so deeply

She is the girl who don't remember people's birthday, because she's not good with numbers
but she loves all of them nonetheless

She is the girl who always make unfavorable choice
Because she hold firmly to what she believes

She is the girl who people thought judge other people, mistreat other people, misstate other people
Yet she is the one who being judged, being mistreated and being misunderstood.

Thank you, love.

Between those two roads.

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim
Alhamdulillah masih bernyawa sehingga hari ini
Masih Allah beri kesempatan menghirup udaranya, masih Allah pinjamkan nikmat-nikmatNya

Now, i am torn between two. Entah, tersangat complicated hidup kebelakangan ini. Saya tahu ramai lagi yang punya masalah lebih besar, punya pelbagai komplikasi mencanak di minda dan hati. Tapi biar saya kali ini, seorang gadis yang merasa sudah tiada siapa disisi saat ini, hanya Allah peteman setia, meluah apa yang terbuku di dada.

Pilihan itu, sememangnya sudah lama harus saya lakukan. Cumanya saya yang memutus untuk tidak memilih, membiar sahaja, go with the flow kata orang, Akhirnya memakan diri, sebelah datang menuntut janji, sebelah datang membawa tanggungjawab yang pasti. Jadi, sekarang memakan diri. Saya akui, saya bukanlah yang terbaik buat kedua-duanya, tetapi ya Allah beratnya keputusan ini :'(

Antara dua itu, keduanya-duanya tanggungjawab yang bukan apabila diterima boleh bersuka ria, ketawa manja, berlari-lari riang di padang penuh dadofil. Bukan, saya sangat yakin kedua-duanya penuh onak ranjau berliku. Kadang-kadang, saya sampai satu tahap terfikir untuk tidak pergi buat kedua-duanya, biar berlaku adil. How selfsih i am right?

Entahlah, tunggu jawapan istikharah, biar Dia yang tentukan :|

P/s: Hari ini genap dua minggu, terima kasih, saya hancur.

Alone

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim

Pernah tak rasa macam sorang-sorang, dalam tempat yang crowded, riuh. Rasa takde mood nk menghadap sesiapa pun. Lepas tu, baca sepotong ayat quran, boleh nangis tersedu-sedu.

Kenapa?

Sebab Allah rindu 

Pernah tak rasa takde siapa yang faham. Kalau kita cerita apa yang kita tgh rasa pun macam tak guna, buang masa. Buang tenaga.

Kenapa?

Sebab Allah rindu

Pernah tak rasa yang semua orang kat dunia ni mengecewakan. Semua. Mengecewakan tahap rasa nk jauhkan diri dari semua orang. Semua.

Kenapa?

Sebab Allah Rindu....

Kenapa bila Allah rindu Allah bagi rasa macam tu?

Sebab Allah nak kita rasa, 'Hasbunallah wani'maal wakeel', cukuplah Allah bagiku sebagai sebaik-baik pelindung. Cukuplah Dia buat kita. Cukuplah. Allah rindu nk dgr rintih hati kita.

Mungkin aku selama ni jauh dari Dia. Headshot.

jzkk

Gunung Ledang sama didaki.

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim,

Wahh, 2 updates in a week. Agak memecahkan rekod disitu :P But anyway, i'm still get excited when remembering our awesome weekend. So ada baiknya terus diupdate sebelum ia berkubur didalam draft buat selama-lamanya.

Yeah! We conquered Gunung Ledang on 16th March 2013 around 5.00 pm, weeeeee~ !

Hikers at the peak!

Us - Idzham, Naim, Syahir, Ajim, Jilan, Alif, Nisa, Ena, Nini, Azira

Tiba-tiba gambar dah sampai puncak, apakah ini syiera T.T

Oklah kita cerita dari awal, 

We all bertolak ke Gunung Ledang around 7.15 am. Perancangan utk bertolak seperti pada pkul 4.30, 5.30 dan 6.30 terpaksa dibatalkan oleh kerana macam mana awal pun sampai di kaki gunung ledang, we can only start hiking at 8.00 am because the tour guide only will arrive at 8.00 am. So, sesiapa yg merancg nk naik lebih awal dari pkul 8 pagi, sila naik gunung-gunung yg lain haha

Sesampai je disana, first thing first haruslah makan. Makan everywhereee. Kredit to the housemate yg sediakan mihun goreng pada pagi tu. One tip utk para pendaki, jika ingin memulakan pendakian, elakkan makanan yang berminyak kerana ia akan meningkatkan kadar keasidan dalam perut dan akhirnya akan muntah, pening etc etc. Tapi, jangan pulak tak makan, sia-sia jelah semangat nak mendaki tapi badan lembik akibat perut kosong. 

waktu sarapan. Ena dan nini sedang berebut sesuatu.

After that, kami register to the renjer. The fees is around RM 38.00 per person including insurance and tour guide fees. Yah i know the price is quite pricey but believe me, it's worth it. Subhanallah, the view up there, phewww~ We have to declare everything that we brought and wore on that day. Everything have to be counted. One thing missing, say hello to goodbye to your RM 50.00 deposit.

Declaring the stuff and little bit of briefing

On your mark, get set, go! 

We started the hiking at 9.00 am after the breakfast and briefing. The trail started with 600 staircase that will lead us to CP1, Bukit Semput. Sesuai sgt dengan nama, memang kesemputan terasa di checkpoint tersebut. One of our group member vomited at this checkpoint. If during hiking you feel like vomiting, let it go. Just vomit, you will feel so much better and you might hike much more faster than everyone else then :P

Nini's family day

We continue to the next checkpoint after get some rest, minum air etc etc. Overall there are 7 checkpoints. We refilled our bottle at checkpoint 3. This checkpoint is called sungai tiga segi something something rasanyalah. Subhanallah, air yg sangat sejuk, segar dan bersih. That was the first time i drank water straight away from the river, and it taste good. Itu sungai dunia tu, sungai dalam syurga nanti macam manalah agaknya ya. And the funny thing was, saya tergelincir and i went straight into the river T.T so i continued my hiking with shoes already soaked in water, nice T.T

Tuan tanah bersama roomate at sungai tiga segi

Batu Hampar, one of the toughest checkpoint

By the time we arrived at bukit botak (i'm not sure what checkpoint was that) its already late for our zuhr prayer. So we stop there and perform our solat. Few minutes after we finished our prayer, suddenly hujan lebat turun. We dont have any other option, we dont have ponco or umbrella with us so we all soaking in the rain. And I am not that creative in making baju hujan out of red plastic bag like some people do :P What a nice experience. And i remember someone once told me, hujan tu kan rahmat, kenapa perlu lari daripadanya? to the person, yeah its great to walk in the rain sambil mengingati kebesaranNya :)

Although its quite risky continuing the journey in the rain but we did it, we continue to climb until we reached the peak. Sambil menggigil because its too cold up there, dengan baju basahnya lagi, we cannot deny that we felt very satisfied and happy, or atleast i felt really really happy at that moment. only 5 minutes up there as we already late and we all were exposed to the danger of lightning strike if we stay longer. So hye puncak gunung ledang, bye puncak gunung ledang :(

The Jejakas

Para Gegadis

With our tour guide, abg Aan.

One of the view from puncak gunung ledang. Agak berkabus.

We started the journey going back at 5.00 pm and we stopped 2 times to perform our asr and maghrib prayer. Its becomes so dark after maghrib but we still have longgg way to go. With only 5 torch lights, it becomes so hard to walk faster and unfortunately i hurt my left ankle and knees. I cant saw there was a wood in front of me, i went straight to the wood, fell down and hurt my ankle. The journey going back become much more slower with an injured person. Its quite shameful, i should be very careful with my steps. Feel like slapping myself afterwards T.T We only arrived at camp base at 11.30 pm. I felt so relieved yet guilty. Alhamdulillah, journey kami untuk mentaddabur alam berjaya dan kami semua sampai dengan selamat :)

So much we learn during the journey, what most important is determination. Determination yang buatkan we all get going. Kalau fikirkan penat, habis je staircase kat bukit semput tu dah rasa semput nak balik rumah sambung tidur haha. Same goes in life, if we determine to get something, we will do everything to get it. No matter how tired, lelah, letih, putus asa we are. Begitu juga dalam perjalanan mengejar syurga, macam manapun Allah uji kita, kalau kita determine nakkan syurga Dia, kita akan redha, sabar,tempuh ujian tu dengan baik. Kita akan lakukan segalanya-galanya demi sebuah syurga abadi, kan? :)

Until here this time, toodles :)

P/s: Sneakpeek gunung dato', katanya nak daki akhir sem ni, jummss ? :)

Gunung Dato', April 2011

Kindy Teacher

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim,

Good morning student, today teacher have got something to tell you, aha :) Mood ticer tiba2 masuk.

As last semester we MMU student got a veryyy long holiday (lah sgtt) so i've decided to gain some experience working as a teacher. So here I am, as a teacher at Tadika Pemintar Taman Kerjasama. Working as a kindergarden teacher is not easy as it sound. Who says teaching ABC and 123 will be easy? Haha you should try teaching ABC and 123 to a group of student who occasionally screaming to each other, punching their friends and keep sharpening the pencil T.T

I decided to continue working there in this semester 3 because of few reasons. One, i think i got a lot of free time as my classes will be only from 8-10 everyday (only tuesday till 4 o'clock). Two, i work well under pressure. So a lot of free time will not bring good to me haha :P. Three, for the obvious reason, i have fall in love with the kids there and the job. I think i might be missing them so much if i quit after the holiday is over. 

Basically my job start from 12 to 6 o'clock. I watch the children sleep while doing some chores such as folding the towel, arrange the plates and cups, prepare food and milk for tea break, tanda buku, berangan dan sebagainya. After that the children will wake up at 3.00 pm. They will start to continue with the study. As for babies, akan diberi susu. First time in my life i make susu for babies. Haha the funny thing is, first day i work there, my hand melecur terkena air panas akibat terlampau mengikut sukatan yg diberikan. 3 oz plus 6 oz, now pakai agak2 je :P And also first time tukarkan pampers for babies, semua terbalik. I have to open back every pampers and correct it the way it should be worn.

The children there are so brilliant. ahhh sometimes they make me melting, but seometimes they really test my patience :) Hikmah bekerja dengan anak-anak kecil ni adalah belajar banyak2 bersabar dan always be careful with our words. Semoga ini juga proses tarbiyyah dalam membentuk saya menjadi seorang lebih penyabar dan sentiasa berhati-hati dalam setiap perkataan. Bekerja dengan anak-anak kecil juga membuatkan saya boleh 'mencuri' sedikit aura positif mereka, makes me always feel younger haha

Gotta go, i have to go to work, toodles, till fingers meet keyboard :)

P/s: I have very very awesome weekend. Will write about it soon enough. bye :)

Of Semester Break

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim

Its been a week of semester break dan nampaknya cuti panjang-panjang ni not as fun as we MMU-ian imagined it would be . Yeah, maybe its just me, a boring person get a boring sem break haha Teringat sewaktu minggu final and all we housemates keep saying was "bila lah nak cuti, bila lah nak cuti" and now dah cuti, i kinda hope now we still in learning week, waalaahh ayat sunggu chenta MMU ni.

Before the semester break started or i might say on the day of my last paper, we did a small gathering among the girls. Masa untuk catch up semula dengan semua kawan-kawan yang dah graduated for their diploma and all that. It was such a great meet up and yeah we did an activity called laser tag at a newly opened laser tag place at Mahkota Parade, Melaka.

Para-para sniper :)

It was unexpected plan as we planned to go to Fruit Farm at Sungai Udang and it turned out that there were no fruit at all T.T (bukan musim, naseblah). We changed our planned to Mahkota Parade and poofff we was there haha That is why i was wearing my jubah and pair of wedges while playing that game. Bayangkanlah terpaksa berlari-berlari dengan jubah and to make thing worse i was targeted by lovely (sangatt :P) housemate, Hafiezah throughout the game so i have to run somehow haha. Turn out i got the second lowest marks among them all, such a lousy sniper i am aite? This game is so much fun and we definitely will play it again sooner.  After that, makan makan and jonker walk visit with them all :)

So back to the topic, this semester break adalah masa untuk 're-charge diri'. After that hustle bustle of student life, now He gave me some time to get a rest and recharge battery yang hampir kong akibat kesibukan mengejar donia yang sementara ini, ayattt. Dan cuti seperti inilah yang menimbulkan rindu, rindu kepada usrah, kuliah, rindu tadah kitab, ahh banyakk lagi rindu. Betullah as people say we will start appreciate thing when they are gone. Pehh sungguh betul ayat itu, masa learning week kemain lagi syaitonn menghasut suruh malas pegi usrah etc etc sekarang dah rinduu :') Jiwa yang tak terisi dengan tarbiyyah pasti akan keluh kesah kan? 

Tapi, as battery, kalau charge lamaaaa sangat, nanti meletup, so saya tak nak lah so called 're-charge diri' terlampau lama, takut-takut nanti jadi malas pulak :) so Alhamdulillah, i've found a job as kindergarden teacher weeee >< Today is my first day and i've been through it smoothly alhamdulillah. Ahhh the cute faces, their voices, their chubby cheeks rasa macam nak peluk-peluk sorang-sorang. I have to teach pendidikan islam, bahasa arab and also mathematics. I am still not yet start with the teaching today so we will see how it goes when i become the teacher. The headmistress say i must be a lil bit garang to the children, haha but seeing their cute faces it might be a little hard, nevermind insyaAllah i will manage :) My initial plan to become tutor for SPM student is not working because my dad get transferred to another school. Yeah, Allah knows which suits me better :)

So, till fingers meet the keyboard. InsyaAllah i will write about my journey as a kindergarden teacher :)

jzkk

p/s: Rindu.